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Thursday, April 11, 2013
To be continued...
I have just officially had the month from hell. My energies have to be spent on healing not just some of my blood relatives, but myself. I have to throw myself into all the tools i’ve been given to keep myself from getting close to the deep end for a while. I’ll be ok. I just need a lot of space right now. I will be taking a sabbatical from blogging, commenting on blogs, tweeting, and youtubing. i will only be posting reviews of books i agreed to read and review prior to the events that have happened with my family. All i can say to the two eyes reading this is to be grateful for your lived ones. Life can end in the time it takes to snap your fingers. Take care.
Thursday, March 28, 2013
Saturday, March 16, 2013
Sunday, March 10, 2013
Friday, March 8, 2013
(NSFW RATED R!) The Game gets captured by the Hunter
I've got all the right moves
and I can dance 'til the break of dawn,
I'm always the one left standing at the end of the marathon,
One taste of my essence and you're already gone,
My pussy's the best high you've ever been on.
He tries hard to keep up with my pace,
But it's difficult with my whole pussy buried in his face,
Thrust after thrust with my ass underneath the blue dress he tore
He fucks me with a rage I've never felt before.
I look straight into his eyes and i grab his throat,
A fine position to see how he'd respond if I was in the mood to choke,
But I throw him back down on the bed,
"It seems like you wanted a fragile little tulip" I said
"Come Slave", I sigh
He crawls towards me, watching the other people go by
I smile and tell him there's no one here to stop me
"Now crawl over here before I count to three".
and I can dance 'til the break of dawn,
I'm always the one left standing at the end of the marathon,
One taste of my essence and you're already gone,
My pussy's the best high you've ever been on.
He tries hard to keep up with my pace,
But it's difficult with my whole pussy buried in his face,
Thrust after thrust with my ass underneath the blue dress he tore
He fucks me with a rage I've never felt before.
I look straight into his eyes and i grab his throat,
A fine position to see how he'd respond if I was in the mood to choke,
But I throw him back down on the bed,
"It seems like you wanted a fragile little tulip" I said
"Come Slave", I sigh
He crawls towards me, watching the other people go by
I smile and tell him there's no one here to stop me
"Now crawl over here before I count to three".
Monday, March 4, 2013
Update
I have a lot of reading to catch up on, so my blogs are going to be short for a while. Lots of vlogging on Youtube and posting it here. I'll try to type up at least one blog a week about stuff going on that I'm thinking about a lot during that particular week.
Today was also the first day in almost a month that Lexi got on the bus to school with no tantrum, and I'm just trying to get rid of all that anxiety of how difficult going through that was. She always loved school so when she was fighting tooth and nail not to go we were all pretty worried. But it was a phase just like I hoped it would be. Now I just have to try to get her to eat breakfast.
My little girl turns 6 in less than a month.
Today was also the first day in almost a month that Lexi got on the bus to school with no tantrum, and I'm just trying to get rid of all that anxiety of how difficult going through that was. She always loved school so when she was fighting tooth and nail not to go we were all pretty worried. But it was a phase just like I hoped it would be. Now I just have to try to get her to eat breakfast.
My little girl turns 6 in less than a month.
Saturday, March 2, 2013
Saturday, February 23, 2013
She Plays For Keeps
Lexi didn't make it to school yesterday. My dad had the day off so he tried to help me out. She was walking around just fine outside for a bit, but as soon as she saw the school bus, she tensed up and went dead weight. My dad tried carrying her but she was punching, kicking, clawing and yelling. We managed to get her on the steps of the bus but she wouldn't budge.
Monday morning her teacher and a lady from special services are going to come a few minutes before the bus comes and seeing if Lexi has her teacher with her maybe she'll get on the bus. Here's hoping.
She went through this phase when she was little. Except back then, of course, she weighed less and we could get her into the car seat. Once my parents were trying to get her into the car to go see my sister and she fought so hard that my dad had to bring her back into the house with me.
I can't wait for this to pass.
Monday morning her teacher and a lady from special services are going to come a few minutes before the bus comes and seeing if Lexi has her teacher with her maybe she'll get on the bus. Here's hoping.
She went through this phase when she was little. Except back then, of course, she weighed less and we could get her into the car seat. Once my parents were trying to get her into the car to go see my sister and she fought so hard that my dad had to bring her back into the house with me.
I can't wait for this to pass.
Tuesday, February 19, 2013
Mindy McCready
If someone's made up their mind to make sure their suicide is
successful, there's nothing you can do about it. Sounds harsh, but this
is a type of drowning that no lifeline will help. Addiction on the
other hand, is a lot more insidious. I know this because in high school
I became an addict. I was given tylanol with codeine for menstrual
cramps. The first time I got high from them it was like a whole new
world was introduced, a world where finally my body didn't hurt at all.
I also have PTSD and deal with panic attacks and anxiety in general, so I started xanax. That's when everything went to hell. I have smoked pot a few times, but I've never and WILL never try any other illegal drug. I have abused alcohol a bunch of times but I am definitely not addicted to it.
My impending demise is due to prescription drugs. I still have trouble not swiping pills from others, but I have been working so hard not to do that anymore, because it makes me really depressed for a week after.
After my daughter was born I fought really hard to get off pain killers and xanax and as time goes by I get further and further away from those damn things that ruined my life for so long. I haven't touched xanax in over 3 years.
Mindy I knew was not long for this world. I wish I wasn't right about that, but I've seen enough people who were not long for this world because of their addiction and trauma issues.
Unless you have a magic wand, no one can be "cured" of an addiction. You just go day by day working on keeping the Big Sadness at bay, because it will be in your life until you die.
I also have PTSD and deal with panic attacks and anxiety in general, so I started xanax. That's when everything went to hell. I have smoked pot a few times, but I've never and WILL never try any other illegal drug. I have abused alcohol a bunch of times but I am definitely not addicted to it.
My impending demise is due to prescription drugs. I still have trouble not swiping pills from others, but I have been working so hard not to do that anymore, because it makes me really depressed for a week after.
After my daughter was born I fought really hard to get off pain killers and xanax and as time goes by I get further and further away from those damn things that ruined my life for so long. I haven't touched xanax in over 3 years.
Mindy I knew was not long for this world. I wish I wasn't right about that, but I've seen enough people who were not long for this world because of their addiction and trauma issues.
Unless you have a magic wand, no one can be "cured" of an addiction. You just go day by day working on keeping the Big Sadness at bay, because it will be in your life until you die.
Monday, February 18, 2013
Coming in May: The Office!
Wow, ten years! If I were a lot younger I totally would have grown up with this show. Instead I grew up with Murphy Brown. Which in a lot of ways is better, IMHO.
Thursday, February 14, 2013
Where You Belong
For wild animals it seems pretty easy. If you are a lion or lioness, you belong to a pride. If you are a coyote, you belong to a pack. If you are a fish, you belong to a school. If you are a goose, you belong to a flock. If you are an ant, you belong to a colony. There is no second guessing: destiny takes a hand and like the first day of school, assigns you your seat, and you just sit there. You go where your group goes. You take care of everyone in your group and fend off any intruders to your territory.
What about those times when wild animals decide that their group does not have to only be comprised of animals who are in the same bloodline? A tiger in a zoo becoming close to its trainer, a pig having no problem nursing a stray kitten, a giraffe giving a house cat a bath.
How are we to be expected to stay in the compartments society wants to cage us in when even God's creatures break the rules from time to time?
What about those times when wild animals decide that their group does not have to only be comprised of animals who are in the same bloodline? A tiger in a zoo becoming close to its trainer, a pig having no problem nursing a stray kitten, a giraffe giving a house cat a bath.
How are we to be expected to stay in the compartments society wants to cage us in when even God's creatures break the rules from time to time?
Wednesday, February 13, 2013
My Valentine's Day Sushi Date
Video of the ride home since I forgot my phone was in my jacket pocket! It cut off at the end: sorry!
http://socialcam.com/v/NEaUq0Bi?type=sms
Friday, February 8, 2013
Friday, February 1, 2013
Lou Colagiovanni Uncensored
More and more people are wanting to write about how they think that Jamal Lewis is actually Lou Colagiovanni.
"The Truth"
Since my last post I have found numerous examples of who Lou Colagiovanni really is, starting with the last blog I posted about him.
(Hey Lou: suffer from Narcissistic Personality Disorder
much?)
My last post on Colagiovanni:
I Acknowledge Class Warfare Exists being attacked:
Low.Genius.Net:
http://gallonsofrubbingalcohol.wordpress.com/tag/lou-colagiovanni/
http://gryphcat.blogspot.com
"The Truth"
Since my last post I have found numerous examples of who Lou Colagiovanni really is, starting with the last blog I posted about him.
(Hey Lou: suffer from Narcissistic Personality Disorder
much?)
My last post on Colagiovanni:
I Acknowledge Class Warfare Exists being attacked:
Comments from people who have dealt with Lou:
Low.Genius.Net:
http://gallonsofrubbingalcohol.wordpress.com/tag/lou-colagiovanni/
http://gryphcat.blogspot.com
Tuesday, January 29, 2013
The Autism Spectrum 10 Commandments
TEN COMMANDMENTS FOR INTERACTING WITH KIDS ON THE AUTISM SPECTRUM...
by Mari Nosal
http://www.linkedin.com/pub/mari-nosal-m-ed-cece/15/b06/95b
https://twitter.com/marimouth
1. Thou shall not yell when speaking to me.
My disability does not impair my hearing and I am extremely bright. Perhaps even brighter than you are.
2. Thou shall not ignore me, talk negatively about me, speak unnaturally slow, or ask questions to others in the room that pertain to me. I can comprehend what you are saying just fine.
3. Thou shall believe in me and help me believe in my skills and self worth. Note the good in me and do not merely point out my negative behaviors. Believe in me and I will believe in myself.
4. Thou shall not perceive me as dumb.
I am extremely intelligent. I do not learn in the same way as you, and maybe not as quickly as you expect me to. Have patience with me. Once I recall information, I never forget.
5. Thou shall not judge my behavior.
I can get overstimulated in certain environments. I may be hypersensitive to sound and loud noises may hurt my ears. Fluorescent lights are distracting for me. They have a humming noise, and can pulsate. All the noises in a room can blur together. Please make accommodations to help me.
6. Thou shall not be so quick to scold me.
Do not tell me that “I know what I did”. I do not. Tell me what my infraction was in a simple, concise manner. I want to please you, but I have difficulties inferring meaning within a vague statement. For instance, do not say please clean up your bedroom. Tell me exactly what you want, such as ‘Please make your bed and pick up your toys”.
7. Thou shall not compare me to others.
Please remind me, and note the talents that I possess. This increases my confidence and positive self worth. Learning disabled or not, we ALL have talents to contribute within society. I need you to help me realize what mine is. Believe in me and I will believe in myself.
8. Thou shall not exclude me from activities.
Please do not mimic me, ignore me, or bully me. Please invite me to play with you. It hurts my feelings when I am excluded. I like to run and jump in the playground, and be invited to birthday parties too. Grownups can help me make friends by encouraging other children to play with me. I can be a loyal friend if you get to
know me.
9. Thou shall give me choices.
I do not like being ordered about any more than the other children. Give me choices so I know you value my capabilities and opinions. Make them simple and concise. Present two options or so. I get confused when too many questions or directions are given at one time due to my processing speed. For instance, ask me if I would like to wear my blue sweater or green one, rather than asking which sweater I would like to wear.
10. Thou shall not judge me by my diagnosis, but by my character.
I am an individual, just like other children. As my son used to say, “Mom my name is John (name changed for his anonymity) not Asperger’s”. A profound statement I would say. :-0)
by Mari Nosal
http://www.linkedin.com/pub/mari-nosal-m-ed-cece/15/b06/95b
https://twitter.com/marimouth
1. Thou shall not yell when speaking to me.
My disability does not impair my hearing and I am extremely bright. Perhaps even brighter than you are.
2. Thou shall not ignore me, talk negatively about me, speak unnaturally slow, or ask questions to others in the room that pertain to me. I can comprehend what you are saying just fine.
3. Thou shall believe in me and help me believe in my skills and self worth. Note the good in me and do not merely point out my negative behaviors. Believe in me and I will believe in myself.
4. Thou shall not perceive me as dumb.
I am extremely intelligent. I do not learn in the same way as you, and maybe not as quickly as you expect me to. Have patience with me. Once I recall information, I never forget.
5. Thou shall not judge my behavior.
I can get overstimulated in certain environments. I may be hypersensitive to sound and loud noises may hurt my ears. Fluorescent lights are distracting for me. They have a humming noise, and can pulsate. All the noises in a room can blur together. Please make accommodations to help me.
6. Thou shall not be so quick to scold me.
Do not tell me that “I know what I did”. I do not. Tell me what my infraction was in a simple, concise manner. I want to please you, but I have difficulties inferring meaning within a vague statement. For instance, do not say please clean up your bedroom. Tell me exactly what you want, such as ‘Please make your bed and pick up your toys”.
7. Thou shall not compare me to others.
Please remind me, and note the talents that I possess. This increases my confidence and positive self worth. Learning disabled or not, we ALL have talents to contribute within society. I need you to help me realize what mine is. Believe in me and I will believe in myself.
8. Thou shall not exclude me from activities.
Please do not mimic me, ignore me, or bully me. Please invite me to play with you. It hurts my feelings when I am excluded. I like to run and jump in the playground, and be invited to birthday parties too. Grownups can help me make friends by encouraging other children to play with me. I can be a loyal friend if you get to
know me.
9. Thou shall give me choices.
I do not like being ordered about any more than the other children. Give me choices so I know you value my capabilities and opinions. Make them simple and concise. Present two options or so. I get confused when too many questions or directions are given at one time due to my processing speed. For instance, ask me if I would like to wear my blue sweater or green one, rather than asking which sweater I would like to wear.
10. Thou shall not judge me by my diagnosis, but by my character.
I am an individual, just like other children. As my son used to say, “Mom my name is John (name changed for his anonymity) not Asperger’s”. A profound statement I would say. :-0)
Classical Music
Last night after everyone was in bed I sat in the living room reading the bio of Edie Sedgwick and listening to classical music. There are a bunch of music TV channels on Comcast that I've listened to with a lot of friends and family members, but I couldn't listen to them because back then you had to have the package with the cable box back then. Now that everything's digital and I have them myself I always forget about them!
I forgot that I really like classical music soft in the background while I do what I do online or when I'm reading for pleasure or reading something I'm going to review.
The 1994 movie version of "Little Women" (starring Winona Ryder) is one of my most favorite movies of all time. I LOVE the soundtrack! I don't know if the score is counted as classical music but it is as far as I am concerned!
soundtrack samples
classical movie soundtrack samples
I forgot that I really like classical music soft in the background while I do what I do online or when I'm reading for pleasure or reading something I'm going to review.
Not so much this type of classical music:
This type of classical music:
The 1994 movie version of "Little Women" (starring Winona Ryder) is one of my most favorite movies of all time. I LOVE the soundtrack! I don't know if the score is counted as classical music but it is as far as I am concerned!
soundtrack samples
classical movie soundtrack samples
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