About six months after I had my daughter, I became sexually frigid. I felt undesirable. I felt like no male would be able to bare being with me since I pretty much never wanted it.
I would get a flutter here and there at the sight of a handsome fella here and there, on the television or on the internet. I'd try to play architect and construct a fantasy-nothing. I'd even tried watching some free porn online. Hey, that should have done the trick, right? And it did, at least when I was by myself. I would have to visualize the dirty scenes I had just witnessed when I was by myself or with someone. It worked to an extent, and I was even beginning to have regular orgasms.
Prozac, in my case, was a Godsend for my mood swings and even my menstrual cycle, but it put the breaks on my sex drive entirely.
I tried to get it back- I watched so much porn I could have gotten a job writing reviews on them. I tried to watch the "romantic" category often. My brain would say how hot the scene was, but my libido sight and said to itself "So what? Booooring!"
I went through months of this until I happened to see a commercial for the television show "Burn Notice". I saw the main character, Jeffrey Donovan, and out of nowhere, a spark lit up deep down between my legs and sent shivers up my spine. I started watching the series and I couldn't believe how much this man could turn me on. I started doing research on him and found out he was in other movies I had seen before: "Hitch", "Sleepers" ("Sleepers" is based on a book I had read in 8th grade. Yes, I am that much of a bookworm), among others that I rented on Netflix.
Just everything about him turns me on- his eyes, his smile, his amazing body (if you rent the movie "Blair Witch 2: Book of Shadows", you get to see what a cute butt he has), his voice his personality.
Hell, I like him so much I actually slept with someone who looked like Jeffrey would have looked like if he were 23. It was very satisfactory, to say the least.
I call him Price Charming since he was the first man to completely awaken me from my libido's slumber. I had lost what made me feel like a red-blooded woman and found somebody who had found that glowing ember that, lucky for me, had not entirely been snuffed.
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