The following blog entry contains a Youtube video that is a very graphic account of rape, incest,torture and survival. PLEASE do not watch it if you believe it will be triggering for you. My stupid blog isn't worth a possible attack of PTSD.
A Dish Best Served in the Barrel of a Gun
by Katie Schab
My revolver reminds me of you
How you gave me my very first taste of a thing called "sin"
How I wish I could give you your very first taste of a thing called "gun metal"
My revenge is lovingly poured into every bullet casing
Every trip to a shooting range, every round of target practice is like a dress rehearsal
My pretty in pink rage and I sleep next to each other like an old married couple
One, two, Freddie's coming for you
Three, four, better lock your door
As I crawl out of every nightmare like a phoenix dusted in burning soot and embers
I clutch my inanimate husband as I cry myself back to sleep
And wake up for another day of proving that looks can kill
in more ways than one
Always held together by a gossamer thread
Always looking forward to the day you are dead
Always wishing I had eyes in the back of my head
I wrote the above poem for an amazing woman/Youtube personality, MyRedSolara:
I'm not a poet but I felt like a muse smacked me right in the face (which happens before almost every time I write poetry, come to think of it) after watching her tell her story in this video below.
All the beauty tricks in the world can't hide what's right underneath the surface.